Friday, December 31, 2010

The Best Part of My Day

Sophie just hit her 4 weeks mark yesterday! Time has gone by pretty quickly in the past 4 weeks with her making her big arrival, the holidays, and everything else in between. I am just so in love with my little girl, and I think she is pretty awesome! Besides having but rash, and that would make anyone uncomfortable. I'd cry much more if I had a butt rash the size of hers. My baby girl is so brave, and I seriously cried with her the nights she was up, because she was in pain. I wished I couldn't just take her pain away. It breaks my heart seeing her hurting, and there's not much I could do about it.

I am so grateful for my relationship with my heavenly father, I know that no matter what, he will always be there, and would never fail me. I know that when I say my prayers, he is listening. I am so grateful that he has entrusted a spirit like Sophie to me and Steve. More so, I am grateful that he has blessed us with a great baby like Sophie.

Steve and I were just discussing this the other day, we seriously don't know how people do it by themselves. It is a lot of work having a baby, and being pregnant and giving birth is actually the easy part of it. All the doctors visits, feeding and diaper changing in the odd hours of the day, and not sleeping. I have help from Steve and my mom, and I am still exhausted. How does any woman handle of having a baby on their own without the help of their spouse? You can only get so much help from family and friends, then you'll have to do it on your own.  I am so grateful to have Steve, and he is so good to me and the baby. I can't ask anything more than a husband like him. He loves me, takes care of me, and he works super hard to make sure that we are being taken care of. ( Shout out to my boop! I LOVE YOU!!... I know you will be reading this)

The best part of my day is hanging out with my baby girl, and when she gives me the biggest smile. All the pain that I went through during the pregnancy, birthing pain, and postpartum pain was all worth that smile on her sweet little face. I don't care how many poopy diapers I will have to change, and how tired I get. That smile, oh yes, that smile on her face-- It is all worth it.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

mama bear instinct

New mama bear (like me) can be very protective of her new born baby. If you do anything remotely provocative and makes me think you will hurt my baby... I will show you the side of Jenn you would never want to see. Ever~!

The morning after we came home with our baby, it was quiet, Steve was by our baby, I was eating breakfast at the dinning table, my mom was on the couch reading, and it was a perfect serene morning. All of the sudden, there was a fast and hard knock on the door, as if someone died kind of door knocking. Steve looked out, and it was our next door neighbor. We thought something was wrong, so Steve opened the door. The neighbor lady barged in without invitation (didn't even take off her shoes, but that's not the point), walked straight towards my baby, and yelled " Where is she? I want to see her". I felt myself shaking,  getting warmer, and ready to charge at this lady with all of my strength. I was absolutely furious!!

First of all, I don't know her that well. Second, I don't know if she has any disease (she looks like the witch in the front cover of the 1st Fablehaven book) even if it's just a cold. Third, why is she in my house??

I don't think I have been this upset before, I said, " DON'T TOUCH HER! LEAVE! LEAVE NOW!!!" I was about to throw my chair at this lady, and strangle her. This lady then said, " oh, I just want to see her" (still with a loud disturbing voice, and standing in my middle of my house with her freakin' shoes on).

I said, " NO! Leave NOW!" I was so mad to a point that I was shaking, and I felt like charging at her and hurt her. She apologized,  and explained that she just want to see the baby, but I didn't care. We didn't invite her in at all, she just barged in. And I really don't want her near my baby.

Moral of the story.... I don't know, I might have over reacted a little, I was a total bitch and barked at her, but she really scared me. All I was thinking was that " OMG, a witch looking women, with cricket yellow teeth is approaching my new born, and she might take my new baby. I will kill if necessary."

What would you do if this were to happen to you?