Found it ~!!!

When the timing is right, everything will fall in to places. One morning I woke up and just thought i should look at the housing page. to my surprise i found an apartment for Steve and I in the time that we need it. It's a cute 2 bedroom apt, and fully furnished. The apt is painted in light yellow, with white side pannel molding stuff.


if you are interested to see what our apt will look like, click here

YAY~!!! our first apt~!!

suspenders and sweat pants

Some old man in front of the Sinclair gas station was indulging himself with a large soda and a sandwich. Nothing is wrong with this image, except the gray over sized sweat pans were hold on to his body by suspenders. i wish i had my camera, and i know Cindy would love that pic.

Steve got me a large cherry coke, cuz i was craving for it. This whole weekend he was so sweet, and he just love me and held me. I love being held by him. Shopping at the outlet in Park City was super fun, especially just hanging out with the man i love the most in the whole entire world. He was so patient with me, and just let me be who I am. I can hardly wait for our wedding date.

cold play

I have always love the rich fulfillling sound of cello, violin and drum playing together. When i heard Coldplay's Vivalavia, i was instantly immersed in the music. I closed my eyes and i can just feel the song, and walk through the imagery the lyrics has painted. The lyric is very abstract, and i quite enjoy listening to it. i was hoping the video could show the Catholic choir singing in a faded black and white film. and the singer walk through his life experience like going back to his old memories.

I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can not explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
And that was when I ruled the world

Click here for the video.

J'espere un jour je peux pense en francaise. Dans une monde comme au jourd'hui, il faux que tous parle mieux que une langue. ok my french is suffering.....

life is going well, just got another project. i was wondering why they'd pick me to do it, then i guess i am the only person who'd do a good job at it. i need to acuquire for a better pay, although i have a very flexible hours, which i can not complain. so in the next few months, i'd be busy doing interviewing people accross the globe. i wonder how i am going to catch people in Japan... uh.... hours difference. .... eh... i am jenn hsu, i can do anything. right?

so... monday.... labor day. Steve and i are going take our engagement pics at Gateway... i am excited. but i wish i have more clothes choice. oh who cares.... we'll look good. if worse comes to the worse. i can always photoshop different outfit into it... hahah.... that's sooo white trash.

i can hardly wait to see my steve tomorrow. i haven't seen him for 3 weeks.... December IS coming up soon. i just wish it's coming sooner,,,, so i can get over the wedding plannin, and talking to my super chinese weird mother. ...

talking about my mother, i really try to love her. but sometimes, well, most of the time, she'll say things that really hurt my feeling. words like... " are you skinner?.. did you loose any weight??" .. ok, so i am 5'2, and weight 130lbs. athletic looking. i am NOT fat whatsoever. yes, i could loose a few pouds, but my chinese mother always put me down like i am the worse daughter ever. I have struggle to pray everyday to my god and praying for help that i could soften my own heart to love her for who she is and not worry about the words coming out of her mouth. Is this just a culture difference that i am experiencing here or what? i never know what she is implying in her words.

on the other hand.... she always tell other people how proud she is of me....? ironic. She's crazy... and we just don't know each other anymore. how sad is this? i know i am sad that my relationship with my mother is not as good as before. i guess i've subpressed alot of feelings and try not to remember what she had done. And one day i see my friend's relationship with their mother, i realized how paralized my relationship with my mother is. She is more like a roommate throughout my childhood, rather than mother/daughter. Mothers should give cousels, and be a good example.... gah.... God, just erase my decayed memories of my parents, and just help me to be the best wife and best mom i can be.

I guess i wouldn't be thinking about how i can be a good mother, if my mom had done a better job with me. My mother is lucky that she got me as a daughter, cuz compare me to other kids, i am just way independent. i was out of er hair... i wonder she knows about this.... maybe i am the one who needs to change attitude... since i can't realy change hers. she is turning into an old... very traditional chinese women... and we live in the land of the free. our thinking is different... our life style is completely different. .........

Wish Bee and Cindy is still here.... Steve, let's just get married right now!

every 3 weeks

The Current gas price is just amazingly high. I guess for people like Steve who is into economics always, if not most of the time, base their thinking and action around money. He mentioned if we see each other every 3 weeks instead of every 2 weeks, we'll save $500 by the time we are married.

I think i am getting better with being away from him. I still get to talk to him every day. I tried to occupy my time with fun stuff, and enjoying the along time I have. I guess once I am married, probably won't have times like this anymore.

"Twilight" is a very interesting book my roommate Megan introduced me to. I have finished the whole serie, which is 3 books. I couldn't put it down. you could click here to see the trailer. i fell in love with the book, and how Edward is so perfect. we all know there is no such man exist in the world. but it's fun to imagine. Bella, a very average girl, but Edward waited 100 years for... amazing


life has been interesting, yoga classes kicks my butt. all the of the sudden i think Le Tour France is amazingly interesting. don't know why. but those guys inspire me for riding that long on bikes. guys and their tight little bike shorts... haha.. like Greg. little american white boys legs.

it just happeneds to be 5 hours

i have a meeting today from 12-5. YAY. it is a strategy planning meeting that i have at work. I don't need to present anything. but since i have to put together all their plans in a power point and updated it. i guess it's crucial that i sit in for the meeting.

so i was going through my outlook and checking my calendar, making sure i know all the meetings that i need to go to in the near future. You know, just those regular meetings that i need to go to. and then i came across August 2nd. I got a little sad, cuz i was suppose to get married on that day. but now it's december. Which is fine... i am still trying to work out my inner peace with it. December is fine. Look at all the benefits. 1. i don't have to move to the hell hole of Rexburg anymore. 2. i get to keep my job, meaning financial stability. 3. Steve graduates, so we can enjoy our first 8 months of marriage without school. YAY. 4. we'll have save a little more money and pay off our debts by December. YAY. So it's not too bad if i keep on looking at these awesome benefits. It just has been strangely difficult to function without Steve. wish he's here with me.

wedding plan is coming along, and i have decided that i don't want that much flowers. I only want my flower, the flower at the sign-in table,food table, and my eating table. Think of it, maybe i'll scrap the sign in table and just decorate it with our pictures. the whole place will be decorated with big pictures. i'll spend $60 bucks to make big pix from costco. Maybe i'll have Josh help me to do it.

this morning i had a dream that i was in Taiwan, and i was so excited in my dream. cuz i wanted to find " 菜 粽 “ but for some odd reason, they didn't have it. and the person who's in charge of the cash register speaks English. weird. I really hope that Steve and I can go back to Taiwan next year. it'll be awesome!

pure hatred

I really hate when people say " aw, that's so long. why don't you just get married in August." Like i didn't know it's so freakin' long. It has been almost pure hell for me being away from Steve, let alone that we have to wait till December to be together. It just happens to work out the best in December.... so people, just shut your freakin' mouth. It's none of your business. By the way, those people who kept on saying those annoying words to me aren't coming to my wedding anyway. Why does it freakin' matter to them? it just makes me so angry when people make comments like that.

Just because your freakin' parents are loaded and you don't have to pay for your wedding... and just because your freakin' mother is planning your whole wedding, and all you do is sit back, and show up on that day. SHUT YOUR FREAKIN' undereducated mouth. think before you speak. Better yet, don't speak, cuz you have such a dense brain. SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP~!!!! i don't want to hear you anymore ...!!

New melody

It still amazes me how some people can write music, i can listen to them just fine, but writing them, coming up with them. No way. I guess I could, but it'll sounds really weird. I have lived with 2 music people during college. Both are amazingly talented, and both are really messy. I couldn't stand them. Their emotion towards certain things, no matter what's messed up in their live, they all have one same trait - Sing forever - when they are upset or simply need an escape.

Last night I have finally accepted that my extended engagement is a blessing that heavenly father gave me. I have never have alot of girl friends, i have a couple that i really talk to and hang out. But I am not sure how to be around girls, isn't it ironic? I guess not in my situation, because i have guy friends mostly. Last night i was hanging out with whole bunch of girls from the ward, and we had alot of food, and watch Grey's and Office together. Whitney painted my nail fuchsia, and other girls painted their nails in super dark color. like blue and black. It was just fun to hang out with the girls when they are not fighsty.

I have observed that only the mellow girls went to the girls night out. all the other... i am sorry, i don't know how else to discribe them.... "fake looking" girls didn't even show up. i guess people attract the kind of people they are themselves. Girls who cares about what color their skin is, and if they have enough bronzer on their face....... I really don't care about those kind of people.

Last sunday, i just had it. I am just so sick of people saying... "why don't you just get married (in august)" I really want to reply with " Just because your daddy pays for all of your college (did you even finish college?) and 10 thousand dollar+ wedding; you don't know how it is to have to do those two things on your own." Yes, it is hard to pay for my own college education and saving money to pay for my own wedding. If I could do it over again, i wouldn't do it any other way. Yes, it would be nice to have the help, get whatever i need, and not worry about how to survive this month. But the lesson was priceless. I have learned how to take care of myself, and knowing everything will be okay if i work hard. These are the times where i learned how to be humble, and have faith in the Lord. Knowing that he'll carry my burden with me, and he's with my 100% of the way. I thank my mother to letting me be independent. but i gotta say....... oh yeah, it was hell.... but I know how to handle things.

oh yeah, the pigeon who is currently living in my balcony had two eggs. One hatched yesterday, and the other one hatched today. they are so cute, and awkward looking. They kinda look like chickens... I told my mom, and she said it's very good luck to have some kind of birth in your home. So i guess it's pretty awesome....?? i need to be more intune with my chinese culture.