Registering

So.... this is the 2nd to the last time that I will drive up to Rexburg to see Steve. Next time I go, it would be for my Idaho bridal shower and say goodbye to all my friends there.

This weekend was short but sweet. first of all, i found out that Steve is cursive challenged while we were addressing our invitation envelops. It was interesting to see his reaction. He is usually good at everything. All of the sudden he doesn't know how to write G in cursive, and having trouble with little m's. It was such a precious moment...... in my mind i was laughing sooooo hard, and try not to show on my face that his writing is really cute. ( like a little 3rd grader) oh! how i love Steve. If he is always good at everything, then our life would be so boring. Also i'd feel so defeated and useless all the time.

Why the feeling defeated? Both of us are first borns of our parents. Being the first child, we are usually smarter then the rest of the children that comes later. Hence, we are better in many things from school, sports, music, language, cooking, and so on. Maybe it's because my mother has such high expectation from me when i was little, i became very competitive. As for Steve, his father is extremely competitive, hence the gene passed down. This is such a humbling experience, because both of us realized that we can't be good at everything. At least i think i can't, cuz i don't want to hurt other people's feeling by winning. If it's important things like business,,, yes! super competitive, cuz it's about my career, money, and future financial status.


Registering is so tiring, and Bed, Bath & Beyond's register gun is so heavy and retarted. Glad Steve has strong finger to press those stupid botton. Why don't they have guns like Targets?? it was so much easier. so..... envelope and register is all done.... now just need to print the pics, temple invite and direction cards....

yay.....


can't wait to be married to the man that i love the most inthe whole entire world, and grow old with him.... and maybe count his wrinckles... hahah.

Engagement pics

YAY~!! so happy that we got our photos so quickly. Emily Skinner took the photos for us. She is absolutely amazing, and she takes alot of the natural shots, which i absolutely loved~!!! she totally captures the moment~!! alot of funny moments too. Click here to see more of it

Found it ~!!!

When the timing is right, everything will fall in to places. One morning I woke up and just thought i should look at the housing page. to my surprise i found an apartment for Steve and I in the time that we need it. It's a cute 2 bedroom apt, and fully furnished. The apt is painted in light yellow, with white side pannel molding stuff.


if you are interested to see what our apt will look like, click here

YAY~!!! our first apt~!!

suspenders and sweat pants

Some old man in front of the Sinclair gas station was indulging himself with a large soda and a sandwich. Nothing is wrong with this image, except the gray over sized sweat pans were hold on to his body by suspenders. i wish i had my camera, and i know Cindy would love that pic.

Steve got me a large cherry coke, cuz i was craving for it. This whole weekend he was so sweet, and he just love me and held me. I love being held by him. Shopping at the outlet in Park City was super fun, especially just hanging out with the man i love the most in the whole entire world. He was so patient with me, and just let me be who I am. I can hardly wait for our wedding date.

cold play

I have always love the rich fulfillling sound of cello, violin and drum playing together. When i heard Coldplay's Vivalavia, i was instantly immersed in the music. I closed my eyes and i can just feel the song, and walk through the imagery the lyrics has painted. The lyric is very abstract, and i quite enjoy listening to it. i was hoping the video could show the Catholic choir singing in a faded black and white film. and the singer walk through his life experience like going back to his old memories.

I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can not explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
And that was when I ruled the world

Click here for the video.

J'espere un jour je peux pense en francaise. Dans une monde comme au jourd'hui, il faux que tous parle mieux que une langue. ok my french is suffering.....

life is going well, just got another project. i was wondering why they'd pick me to do it, then i guess i am the only person who'd do a good job at it. i need to acuquire for a better pay, although i have a very flexible hours, which i can not complain. so in the next few months, i'd be busy doing interviewing people accross the globe. i wonder how i am going to catch people in Japan... uh.... hours difference. .... eh... i am jenn hsu, i can do anything. right?

so... monday.... labor day. Steve and i are going take our engagement pics at Gateway... i am excited. but i wish i have more clothes choice. oh who cares.... we'll look good. if worse comes to the worse. i can always photoshop different outfit into it... hahah.... that's sooo white trash.

i can hardly wait to see my steve tomorrow. i haven't seen him for 3 weeks.... December IS coming up soon. i just wish it's coming sooner,,,, so i can get over the wedding plannin, and talking to my super chinese weird mother. ...

talking about my mother, i really try to love her. but sometimes, well, most of the time, she'll say things that really hurt my feeling. words like... " are you skinner?.. did you loose any weight??" .. ok, so i am 5'2, and weight 130lbs. athletic looking. i am NOT fat whatsoever. yes, i could loose a few pouds, but my chinese mother always put me down like i am the worse daughter ever. I have struggle to pray everyday to my god and praying for help that i could soften my own heart to love her for who she is and not worry about the words coming out of her mouth. Is this just a culture difference that i am experiencing here or what? i never know what she is implying in her words.

on the other hand.... she always tell other people how proud she is of me....? ironic. She's crazy... and we just don't know each other anymore. how sad is this? i know i am sad that my relationship with my mother is not as good as before. i guess i've subpressed alot of feelings and try not to remember what she had done. And one day i see my friend's relationship with their mother, i realized how paralized my relationship with my mother is. She is more like a roommate throughout my childhood, rather than mother/daughter. Mothers should give cousels, and be a good example.... gah.... God, just erase my decayed memories of my parents, and just help me to be the best wife and best mom i can be.

I guess i wouldn't be thinking about how i can be a good mother, if my mom had done a better job with me. My mother is lucky that she got me as a daughter, cuz compare me to other kids, i am just way independent. i was out of er hair... i wonder she knows about this.... maybe i am the one who needs to change attitude... since i can't realy change hers. she is turning into an old... very traditional chinese women... and we live in the land of the free. our thinking is different... our life style is completely different. .........

Wish Bee and Cindy is still here.... Steve, let's just get married right now!

every 3 weeks

The Current gas price is just amazingly high. I guess for people like Steve who is into economics always, if not most of the time, base their thinking and action around money. He mentioned if we see each other every 3 weeks instead of every 2 weeks, we'll save $500 by the time we are married.

I think i am getting better with being away from him. I still get to talk to him every day. I tried to occupy my time with fun stuff, and enjoying the along time I have. I guess once I am married, probably won't have times like this anymore.

"Twilight" is a very interesting book my roommate Megan introduced me to. I have finished the whole serie, which is 3 books. I couldn't put it down. you could click here to see the trailer. i fell in love with the book, and how Edward is so perfect. we all know there is no such man exist in the world. but it's fun to imagine. Bella, a very average girl, but Edward waited 100 years for... amazing


life has been interesting, yoga classes kicks my butt. all the of the sudden i think Le Tour France is amazingly interesting. don't know why. but those guys inspire me for riding that long on bikes. guys and their tight little bike shorts... haha.. like Greg. little american white boys legs.

it just happeneds to be 5 hours

i have a meeting today from 12-5. YAY. it is a strategy planning meeting that i have at work. I don't need to present anything. but since i have to put together all their plans in a power point and updated it. i guess it's crucial that i sit in for the meeting.

so i was going through my outlook and checking my calendar, making sure i know all the meetings that i need to go to in the near future. You know, just those regular meetings that i need to go to. and then i came across August 2nd. I got a little sad, cuz i was suppose to get married on that day. but now it's december. Which is fine... i am still trying to work out my inner peace with it. December is fine. Look at all the benefits. 1. i don't have to move to the hell hole of Rexburg anymore. 2. i get to keep my job, meaning financial stability. 3. Steve graduates, so we can enjoy our first 8 months of marriage without school. YAY. 4. we'll have save a little more money and pay off our debts by December. YAY. So it's not too bad if i keep on looking at these awesome benefits. It just has been strangely difficult to function without Steve. wish he's here with me.

wedding plan is coming along, and i have decided that i don't want that much flowers. I only want my flower, the flower at the sign-in table,food table, and my eating table. Think of it, maybe i'll scrap the sign in table and just decorate it with our pictures. the whole place will be decorated with big pictures. i'll spend $60 bucks to make big pix from costco. Maybe i'll have Josh help me to do it.

this morning i had a dream that i was in Taiwan, and i was so excited in my dream. cuz i wanted to find " 菜 粽 “ but for some odd reason, they didn't have it. and the person who's in charge of the cash register speaks English. weird. I really hope that Steve and I can go back to Taiwan next year. it'll be awesome!