pure hatred

I really hate when people say " aw, that's so long. why don't you just get married in August." Like i didn't know it's so freakin' long. It has been almost pure hell for me being away from Steve, let alone that we have to wait till December to be together. It just happens to work out the best in December.... so people, just shut your freakin' mouth. It's none of your business. By the way, those people who kept on saying those annoying words to me aren't coming to my wedding anyway. Why does it freakin' matter to them? it just makes me so angry when people make comments like that.

Just because your freakin' parents are loaded and you don't have to pay for your wedding... and just because your freakin' mother is planning your whole wedding, and all you do is sit back, and show up on that day. SHUT YOUR FREAKIN' undereducated mouth. think before you speak. Better yet, don't speak, cuz you have such a dense brain. SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP~!!!! i don't want to hear you anymore ...!!

New melody

It still amazes me how some people can write music, i can listen to them just fine, but writing them, coming up with them. No way. I guess I could, but it'll sounds really weird. I have lived with 2 music people during college. Both are amazingly talented, and both are really messy. I couldn't stand them. Their emotion towards certain things, no matter what's messed up in their live, they all have one same trait - Sing forever - when they are upset or simply need an escape.

Last night I have finally accepted that my extended engagement is a blessing that heavenly father gave me. I have never have alot of girl friends, i have a couple that i really talk to and hang out. But I am not sure how to be around girls, isn't it ironic? I guess not in my situation, because i have guy friends mostly. Last night i was hanging out with whole bunch of girls from the ward, and we had alot of food, and watch Grey's and Office together. Whitney painted my nail fuchsia, and other girls painted their nails in super dark color. like blue and black. It was just fun to hang out with the girls when they are not fighsty.

I have observed that only the mellow girls went to the girls night out. all the other... i am sorry, i don't know how else to discribe them.... "fake looking" girls didn't even show up. i guess people attract the kind of people they are themselves. Girls who cares about what color their skin is, and if they have enough bronzer on their face....... I really don't care about those kind of people.

Last sunday, i just had it. I am just so sick of people saying... "why don't you just get married (in august)" I really want to reply with " Just because your daddy pays for all of your college (did you even finish college?) and 10 thousand dollar+ wedding; you don't know how it is to have to do those two things on your own." Yes, it is hard to pay for my own college education and saving money to pay for my own wedding. If I could do it over again, i wouldn't do it any other way. Yes, it would be nice to have the help, get whatever i need, and not worry about how to survive this month. But the lesson was priceless. I have learned how to take care of myself, and knowing everything will be okay if i work hard. These are the times where i learned how to be humble, and have faith in the Lord. Knowing that he'll carry my burden with me, and he's with my 100% of the way. I thank my mother to letting me be independent. but i gotta say....... oh yeah, it was hell.... but I know how to handle things.

oh yeah, the pigeon who is currently living in my balcony had two eggs. One hatched yesterday, and the other one hatched today. they are so cute, and awkward looking. They kinda look like chickens... I told my mom, and she said it's very good luck to have some kind of birth in your home. So i guess it's pretty awesome....?? i need to be more intune with my chinese culture.

conference weekend

i have been in my house for the whole weekend. and i have been SO bored. so i have been putting all the lotion i can find and put it everywhere i can apply on my body. I have done the Galvanic Spa on my face, whitening my teeth, softening my feet with Epoch . i have even gone to my face book and tag everyone in my picture albums... yeah i have been bored. Maybe i need to go out and make more friends.... but then again, i am getting married in 4 monthes, and what's the point of making friends that i will not see again??

i have been sitting in front of my TV for almost 2 days straight of my waking hours. which is very pathetic. and i have been hungry, but i am not sure what i am hungry for. maybe i am just dehydrated. i am not really sure. My pantry doesn't have alot of ready to eat food. everything i want to eat has to be cooked. i should come up with some sort of recipe for quick and easy food. i just don't want to turn fat because of eating junk food. that is just wrong. I REFUSE to eat frozen food on daily bases.... and i REFUSE to eat strudel stuff.. it's just basically eating straight sugar.... yuck~!

i use to like to cook, that cuz i have friends that would eat it. now i basically live alone, althought i ahve 2 roommates, but they are seldom here in the house. everytime i make food, it's just hard to finish them before they spoil.

THEN~~~~~~ i found Fragonard online, and i was sooo happy. in 2006 i was in Paris and had a chance to visit one of the world famous perfumeries in Paris. I bought a bottle of perfume called Bell De la Nuit, but since mom likes it, so i gave it to her. Now, i can buy it online.. although it was alot cheaper in Paris. it was only 31 euros then. now it's 52 American dollars plus shipping. check this out, click here, Bell De la Nuit i love these perfme. especially the ones from paris.

i have always loved perfumes, and i have collected them since i was a little. My aunt "lei lei" has always brought back little perfumes when she travels. and my aunt Darlene is into fashion and always gives me earrings. aunt Chao Hsiu lives in Rome and she always has cool stuff for me too. Maybe one day i will open a boutique that sells french perfume and weird stuff.


ahhhhhh....... i am going nuts. i can' wait to see Steve and be with him for the the break. i can't wait to see sweet pea.. my favoite pug in the whole entire world.

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hahaha...Steve just called me and told me about his skinny tall gay femmie socially retarted roommate put his whole entire pan of mac and cheese with TUNA.... "TUNA~!!!!" and spechula in the fridge.... no cover.

this is a lesson to be learned, i will make sure that my children will not be a burden to other people by not knowing these common sense... WOW.... who does that. i am just glad that there's only two other roommates in thie house. Molly is clean.. Kalyn can be a little messy in the sink sometimes. on friday she left her unfinished cereo with MILK in the sink. kinda gross... oh well... she's busy right??

i am gonna call it a night, my muscle relaxin has kicked in... it feels really good.

Am I a Bad Friend?

I have become more patient throughout the years, and i really try to be patient and sympathetic. Sometimes i just don't care what's going on in other people's life. I care about my close friends and family's life, but when i can't do anything for that person, i would refer them to someone else.

well, since i don't want to put this person's name on my blog. Let's give this person a name of Dinky. Dinky is 23 years old, and never been kissed. She's desperate to find out more information about this other person whom she is interested. Dinky keeps on saying that she doesn't care, but if she doesn't care, why would she stay at my apt and talk to me for over an hour about this boy? The thing is that i am not even close to Dinky, i don't even know her parents name. I don't even know her birthday. Basically, she kinda just kind of attach herself to me at a social event. I wish i could be a better friend to her, but i don't know much about her. I know I sound really ridiculous right now, and probably sound really selfish. Dinky needs some psychological help, i asked her what can i do for her. she just keeps on saying 'oh, nothing' .

Note to self, when other people ask how you are doing. always answer "Amazing" Even if you are doing terrible, you can always act amazing, and hope it'll be okay and amazing at the end. i know you'll attract what you think in your mind. i know if you want to be a winner in whatever field, you've got to see the result picture in your head, and keep on working towards it.

I really like this quote from Aristotle "We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, therefore, is not an act, but a habit." Dinky keeps on doing the same thing. keeps on saying that she doesn't care. when deep down inside, she is afraid to be alone. Yet, her act towards boys seems too pushy, over board, and just too much for a boy to take.

If anyone want to attract the opposite sex, they need to first have confidence in themselves. No one wants to date someone who is not sure about themselves. Everyone wants to date the "cool" person, you know? Some said women with higher education or are successful in their career intimidates man. Well, i think not. Who would want to marry a couch potato? No man would want to marry a stupid person who sub-press their abilities to be married. I don't think smart man would want to marry someone knowing that they will suck at teaching their children. It's SOOOOO STUPID when single women think that they should stop seeking for education and start looking for a man to marry them. Gosh woman, have some self-confidants.

It's common sense to me not to be pushy with boys, you don't want them to be stressed when they are with you. Especially when you are with a boy that you like.

Note to self... don't let your kids skip grades. it will ruin their social skills.

commpliments from Dan

Jennifer,

Love what you have done with Nu Communications. Keep it up, it’s making a difference.

Dan

Background: Dan Chard is the Executive Vice President, Distributor Success for Nu Skin Enterprises. he is my boss's boss... yeah... pretty big deal. so these are some of the people that i work with click here

i am writing this blog, and hoping no one would see it....... i don't really care

What Dan wrote in that e-mail totally just made my day =^.^= I am so glad that my big projects are done, but I still need to make an inset for the TE trip before 4/4. i'll prpbabaly have it done by today. Work has been really crazy lately, and the reason i said that is i kinked my neck twice with in one week. when i was with Tiffani, she pulled on my neck, and when she pull closer to the neck, my head tilted to the right. Apparently, my c2 and c3 were out. it was quit painful.

This morning was better... still a little sore...